Lately I've been having a few struggles that seem to just be consuming me. At the end of the day I often reflect on how the overall day was and I go to sleep feeling like a complete failure...I'm often comparing myself to those around me and to be honest I am just tired of it! I am who I am and I so want to be comfortable with that! Does anyone else understand??? I may not be this or that but you know what...I have a husband who adores me and loves me more than I could have ever imagined. I have 3 kids, that even though there are days that I think they wish they had a different mom, that love me and whenever I leave to run an errand they act like I was gone for 2 weeks when I walk through the door and run to hug and kiss me. I have parents who even though I've hurt them in the past they have forgiven me and love me unconditionally. I have siblings that I just couldn't live without and enjoy their company. I have a roof over my head, and a house full of laughter and love. Why am I complaining about what I'm not and what I don't have. Who cares! God is for me! He made me and formed me to be what I have become and what I will become.
When I have days like this I'm learning more and more to just pray pray pray. So thankful that when it comes down to it..it's totally up to Him! I don't have to keep carrying around these failures & burdens. So here I am, opening my hands to God and saying take it all and make me the woman that YOU want me to be....not who I think I should be but who you designed me to be.
