Anyone out there?

Found this old blog I created like 5 years ago tonight while scrolling through old Facebook posts.  What a treasure to discover some of my thoughts and the journey I was on in 2010 when I began this blog.  I obviously didn't stick with the blog!  Good intentions just gave way to the business of a wife and mom.  Well, I'm inspired to try this again....

My life is quite different and yet very still much the same since 2010.  My battles with weight and running are still ongoing.  But I'm happy to say that I was able to trim down 25 more pounds over the last year and feel better now than I have felt in over 13 years.  Not really running so much but I do still have a twinge of desire every now and then to get out and try to train for a 1/2 marathon.  Crazy thinking!!!  Wish I could someday experience that "Runner's High" that I hear so much about!

I'm still homeschooling, without the help of my mom-in-law, and learning everyday how to overcome the challenges and rejoice in the little successes.

I'm attempting to try and figure out what to do with the rest of my life.  And this is where my life is different.  My husband keeps me reminding me that retirement is around the corner and we need to figure out what we are going to do when we grow up!  I thought I was doing what I wanted to do when I grew up.  But apparently I only thought about my life into my 30's.  I didn't really think about anything past my 40's.  And now, getting closer and closer to 40 I am thinking...what am I going to do when the kids are grown and no longer need me???

Rich wants to retire from his Law Enforcement job at 50.  But we will still need to sustain life with some sort of job and have income, health benefits, etc.  I'm sure he will do something outside of Law Enforcement.  But what will I do??

I desire to go back to work eventually.  But for the time being I'm very content being at home with the kiddos.  As chaotic as it can be somedays from juggling daycare, homeschool, and household duties...I feel successful.  I feel like I'm doing what I'm supposed to do.  I don't have a 'drive' to discover a new side of me for a career or job.  Is there something wrong with me?  I have no clue what I could do after the kids are grown.  I could go to school now but honestly, it's too much.  All I hear is that jobs are hard to come by these days. And for someone like me who has been out of the work force for over 10 years it will be even harder.  I would say that this is where my faith has to come in.

I'm a born-again Christian and do believe that God is Sovereign over my life.  I believe that he orchestrates my circumstances in order to bring glory to Him...Providence.  I can't figure all of this out right now.  I want to enjoy the life that God has given me for this time of my life.  And I want to believe that He will guide me down a path in the future that will bring joy, contentment and success.

Blogs are everywhere now and not even sure who reads them.  I'm not posting these to Facebook because honestly...Facebook is a bit too much at times.  Yes, lets be honest!  So, if there are any people out in the 'blogger' world who identify with where I'm at in my life please comment!  We can gain encouragement and wisdom from knowing we're not alone on this journey.

Phil 4:19